update time...

So a few things have come about I will try to highlight the important parts.

The gym job is still going well...
the 2nd job is going ok, but I know its not what I want to be doing...

Both of the last 2 comments mean that there is no upward movement avail. unless I leave town, which I do want to do, but its not going to happen anytime soon...

So instead of wasting time...

I have decided that I am going to go back to school in the fall... No I do not hav all my ducks in a row yet, but it will most likely be back at UB... I am hoping to finish up that pesky AT thing so I can get Certified, because though there are many things I wouldnt mind doing for a job..for as long as I can remember that is what I have wanted to do.
I know it wont be easy with all the travel that is involved in it and the time, but I honestly think it could work out I mean there are clinic based jobs, high school jobs, Jr colleges, "real" colleges, semi- pro and pro levels that I could find a job in and I am hoping that once I finish this this can be a springboard towards us leaving the WNY area, since it would mean me sending out job applications and I am not closing any doors on possible areas to move to though obviously I have prefrences.

I have discussed this with a couple family members, and with lori, as well as with some friends and co - workers and everyone seems to agree with me that it seems the right thing to do depending on what all would be involved to do so .

I I tried to call the director of AT at UB, since when I left she and I have a pretty good understanding of each other. Unfortunately I couldnt get ahold of her on the phone and I wasnt sure what to say on a voice mail. SO right before I started typing this I sent her an email just saying hi and asking if she had time to meet with me to discuss some things because I was thinking about coming back to college... Now awaiting a reply... I dont think I have ever been this anxious waiting for a reply from a professor.

In other news... We went out to see Ember Swift last night ... It was great.. ran into some people I knew from before who I havent really spoke with in a long time and the last time we did talk it was kinda shakey ground... so in essence we kinda burried the hatchet... I think its a good thing.

Basically everything that has been happening in my life the past couple days is leading me to believe that I am making the right decision to go back and what to go back for the ? is though do I try for the masters program, or just finish the few classes I need and get some 3rd Bachelors degree? Also I feel much better now about the possiblity of UB over Canisius, not just because of the $ aspect of it, but just things that friends have said really gave me a sort of peace with the whole thing.

"If you go in and show them that you have changed and put all that crap from the past behind you then they will be more likely to do the same and if they dont you know you are a better person than them and you just have to do what you need to get where you want, even if it means a little ass kissing." ~ ok I kinda paraphrased that, but that was the point of it.

So for now I am off to both jobs today trying to just keep keeping on until I hear back from the only ATC that maters right now.